Evangeline Marie

Our precious girl. is finally with us! Evangeline Marie Panuccio decided to be born to this word on the 19th of November 2009. We are so greatful and happy to have our princess with us and the boys couldnt be more excited.

She was 3110g and 49cm long and absolutley gorgeous. We love her soooooo much.

We are so grateful to precoius boy Michael ,cause without him we wouldnt have aour precious girl here with us. I miss you Michael more and more every day and having evangeline in our life as made us so happy but somehow made me realise even more what I missed out on with you. Mummy loves you forever and until you are in my arms my heart will not be complete. I know have 4 beautiful children, 3 here and one in the spirit world and for that I am eternally grateful. I know one day we will all be together. Until then ....I will always carry you in my heart!

7 weeks to go

Its been a while since I have blogged..and I guess for the most part its been a little hard to sit here during this pregnancy .

I only have 7 weeks to go and feeling quite tired and sore but at the same time so excitied. But my thoughts are with my precious baby michael. I miss you my little one and as we prepare for you little sister ..a blessing I know you sent to us I cant help think of you. Wishing I brought you home and wishing you were here to. The thoughts and hopes for your sister have eased the pain in my heart for you but my fears are there.

What if I dont bring this baby home. ...But I will..Iknow i will. I cant wait to have your sister in my hands but I know my thoughts will also be with you.

I have been thinking about my gorgeous friend Sharene also. Loosing her life during child birth was such a traumatic shock for all of us that loved her. And as I prepare for my unborn child I cant help but think ..sharene did that too ..She had everything reaady and never got to come home. My heart breaks for her and her precious angel baby luke.

I know that its a time I need to remain positive and know in my heart that all will be fine but I know my fears are starting to play havic with my emotions. Thankfully I have so many people around that love and support me...And my precious boys and gorgeous husband are what get me through..I cant wait to bring their sister home..To show the boys all will be fine. I sence their anxiety also...

Michael as the time approaches I ask you to watch over mummy ad your precious sister. Please make he arrival as calm and peacful and beautiful as possible and bring her and myself home to your daddy and brothers.Mummy loves you always xx

My sisters keeper

Last nite I went to see the beautiful movie "My sisters keeper". I was in tears the entire movie and I could not help but think of Michael through out the entire movie. As I watched the mother take care of a gravely ill child and the battles. sacrifices she made to fight for her child's life , I felt this enormous amount of gratitude for Michael and realised how much he had given me. I was so thankfully that I was given this time with my two precious boys on earth and so grateful that because of Michael I know have the opportunity to carry another child. A Healthy child.

How can someone so small , so fragile and only here in my womb for 5 months teach me so much. The wisdom you have given me Michael. I will be eternally grateful xx