5 years ago

So this time five years ago we found out you were really ill ! I really struggle this time of year my boy ! Rehashing the events of that many years ago you'd think I'd be ok , over it ! This us something you never get over ! How do you forget a child you only held for a moment but should have been a lifetime ! This not the natural order if life . This is not the way it's meant to be .

But it is the way it is ! I'm here ! You are there and only you know how much I miss you ! Love you x thank you for all the signs x

Birthday gift from an angel with love x

Just one wish

The presents are open ,
The guest are gone.
The silence gives mummy a chance to wonder
What your smile would have been like on Christmas Day .

Would you have run to the tree,
Opened your gifts
Jumped on mummy and daddy's bed
Just like your brothers did .

Amongst all the Caos , laughter and joy
Mummy hopes you noticed I took a moment for you boy
So in the silence I miss you so ,
Wishing just one Christmas I could hold you close .

Just one .