Well if you asked me how I was yesterday I would have said that I didn't think I could get through today but surprisingly we had a lovely day . I wanted to think of today as more of a celebration to honour such a special boy . I think this got me through
We woke up and spent the morning together as a family . Giovanni stayed home from school today and Vince also did not go to work. We made our way to the cemetery at about 10am , together with my mum.
When we got there and work men were around fixing up the turf on some other children's graves .I was a little disappointed as I really hoped for some quiet time with my boys but we persevered and tidyed up his grave and the had a cake and candle for him which the boys enjoyed blowing out . We sang "Happy Birthday" to our precious baby . We then took some photos and spent some time with Michael. The angels answered my prays because in the meantime the workmen disappeared .
The boys were a little sad. Nikki said to me " Mummy I wish Michael was home with us and you could feed him and change his nappy and we could pick him up" and Giovanni said "Mummy I wish he was coming home with us" . The grief at time is so difficult to deal but watching your babies grieve their little brother can be so heartbreaking . I wish sometimes I could take that pain away from them . They know "loss" at such a young age . Sometimes it just breaks my heart.
Michael we love you so Much . Hope you had a wonderful celebration in heaven with your Nonnu and Nonna Panuccio and dear friends Sharene and Luke ....I know you are in a special place and taken care of.
Michael we love you so Much . Hope you had a wonderful celebration in heaven with your Nonnu and Nonna Panuccio and dear friends Sharene and Luke ....I know you are in a special place and taken care of.
What a beautiful day for a beautiful little boy
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I'm glad to hear you all had a nice day, despite the difficulty of it. Giovanni and Nicholas obviously have big hearts, like their parents. God bless you all...Michael is lucky to have you all xxx
ReplyDeleteI love that you have individual trees. That is GREAT. We have one that is just ours right now and I hope that is stays just ours. I would be so sad if we had to share it, that means someone went through the same thing I did. In Our cemetery all angel babies are buried right by a tree. Anyways, I know is horrible to say that, and I am sorry that you had to loose something so sweet. I miss my little guy every day. god bless
ReplyDeleteRita, this is so brave of you to have come so far. I can not believe it has been a year. I am so sorry to hear what happened at Michael's grave. I am so glad you and your family were able to celebrate the anniversary in such a commerative day. It sounds like you had a beautiful day with your family.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry I have not kept in contact but am thinking of you always.
Love
Steph