The journey of trying to conceive is proving to be harder than I thought. I always thought that once I made up my mind it would just happen. But there is SO much that goes into it emotionally and whilst I have done allot of work to get to were I am now its not only about me . My poor husband has his own fears and own misgivings.
I know now that I do want another baby so badly but need to be patient with my husband too. He has been thru so much in his life and it is totally understandable that he too has fears . But men are such closed closets with so many emotions they keep bottled up inside . Its so hard to know what is going on in his head.
I hope in time that this too is just another experience and we can work thru it to come out on the other side with perhaps a precious little angel and if it doesn't happen I am bless for what I do have .