So this time five years ago we found out you were really ill ! I really struggle this time of year my boy ! Rehashing the events of that many years ago you'd think I'd be ok , over it ! This us something you never get over ! How do you forget a child you only held for a moment but should have been a lifetime ! This not the natural order if life . This is not the way it's meant to be .
But it is the way it is ! I'm here ! You are there and only you know how much I miss you ! Love you x thank you for all the signs x