Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Michaels First Heavenly Birthday

Well if you asked me how I was yesterday I would have said that I didn't think I could get through today but surprisingly we had a lovely day . I wanted to think of today as more of a celebration to honour such a special boy . I think this got me through

We woke up and spent the morning together as a family . Giovanni stayed home from school today and Vince also did not go to work. We made our way to the cemetery at about 10am , together with my mum.

When we got there and work men were around fixing up the turf on some other children's graves .I was a little disappointed as I really hoped for some quiet time with my boys but we persevered and tidyed up his grave and the had a cake and candle for him which the boys enjoyed blowing out . We sang "Happy Birthday" to our precious baby . We then took some photos and spent some time with Michael. The angels answered my prays because in the meantime the workmen disappeared .

The boys were a little sad. Nikki said to me " Mummy I wish Michael was home with us and you could feed him and change his nappy and we could pick him up" and Giovanni said "Mummy I wish he was coming home with us" . The grief at time is so difficult to deal but watching your babies grieve their little brother can be so heartbreaking . I wish sometimes I could take that pain away from them . They know "loss" at such a young age . Sometimes it just breaks my heart.

Michael we love you so Much . Hope you had a wonderful celebration in heaven with your Nonnu and Nonna Panuccio and dear friends Sharene and Luke ....I know you are in a special place and taken care of.


  1. What a beautiful day for a beautiful little boy


  2. I'm glad to hear you all had a nice day, despite the difficulty of it. Giovanni and Nicholas obviously have big hearts, like their parents. God bless you all...Michael is lucky to have you all xxx

  3. I love that you have individual trees. That is GREAT. We have one that is just ours right now and I hope that is stays just ours. I would be so sad if we had to share it, that means someone went through the same thing I did. In Our cemetery all angel babies are buried right by a tree. Anyways, I know is horrible to say that, and I am sorry that you had to loose something so sweet. I miss my little guy every day. god bless

  4. Rita, this is so brave of you to have come so far. I can not believe it has been a year. I am so sorry to hear what happened at Michael's grave. I am so glad you and your family were able to celebrate the anniversary in such a commerative day. It sounds like you had a beautiful day with your family.
    I am sorry I have not kept in contact but am thinking of you always.